I Have to Make a Decision

Well for the past week or so I have been struggling with the decision to have more surgery or not.  I am so tired of being in pain all of the time and seeing no clear-cut solution.  I miss important classes and meetings, I can't sleep through the night, and I can't eat any of the hard foods I want.  Right now the only two ways that I can go from here is living with pain and trying to find a medication that might help or having another partial jaw joint surgery on my left joint.  
I hesitate to have surgery because of a few things.  First, I've already had to have 18 surgeries.  Having another surgery is not something I really jump at.  Also, what if the surgery does not work?  My last surgery on my right jaw joint hasn't really eased any pain.  If this surgery doesn't work, I'll have gone through another surgery and would still be in pain.


Any suggestions?  I would welcome any ideas, points of view, etc...